Thursday, July 21, 2005

i have a new blog. check it out. http://www.ilovemartine.blogspot.com

im over the superficiality. its time to grow up.
~martine~ at 10:33 PM

Friday, July 15, 2005

sorry, everyone.. i overreacted. but thank you to everyone who apologized...

i realize that it's really not a big deal.. and im sure if i were not the butt of the joke, i would think it was hilarious.... so once again, sorry for the emotional breakdown.

so enough of that.

here's my day at disneyland with shelty.











i just thought this girl was cute.


i just thought this guy was cute.. ha


i just thought of looking like an astronaut for a good second.


waiting in line.....


STILLLL waiting in line! holy cow.. i waited 75 minutes to ride space mountain!

and it was still practically the same ride! remodeling?? yeah right!

some rapids ride.. got soaked.. broke my new phone.


ice cream ritual.


the fireworks show was spectacular! and this is from a girl who could really care less about a dumb fireworks show.. but this one was really different and really cool. really really. did i mention it was really cool? really...

so im a happy camper (today at least)..

and i finally got my ears pierced..
~martine~ at 11:04 PM

Thursday, July 14, 2005

so im..

-pissed
-mad
-sad-
-disappointed...

its probably my fault for being way too sensitive.. but sheesh.. just because all of you don't think im sensitive doesnt mean that im not.

i get jokes.. trust me.. i always laugh at myself.. i always make fun of myself and tease you guys tooo.. but i guess it just sucks that i was just being laughed at while i thought i was doing something really cool. i guess i was just a joke to you all.

thanks for being so genuine..

once again i apologize for being too sensitive/lame/gay.. but some jokes arent really that funny.. especially when you're being made a fool of and not even realizing it...

thanks for always backing me up to when i would have "ish".. (another issue.. but not going to get into that)..

the sucky part is none of you would have even told me.. like ever. wow..
"ohh lets just all laugh at martine because she doesnt care what we do.. lets just never tell her because its funny".. YEAH ITS PRETTY FREAKIN HILARIOUS.. is it funny now?

THANKS AGAIN..

p.s.. i dont want to talk about it.. i really dont.. just read this stupid post. think about it.. and please just think of others in the future when you decide to be "funny"..........

p.p.s. yeah yeah i know im such a drama queen but its better to vent here and atleast let u guys know what i feel rather than just keep it to myself and grow more distant.... its really not that serious, but i am upset.. maybe its the pms speaking for me
~martine~ at 11:58 PM

Saturday, July 09, 2005

moving units show thingee...

first.. janice's house.. the cutening up process.. ya know how that goes.


















house of blues for din-din.






we werent allowed to bring cameras in.. so i snuck mine in.. sneaky little hottie. ha


oh yeah.. so we almost got into a fight with this stupid b. (b=bitch)...

any way.. so we were sitting on the floor during intermission and she told us that we should get up or she'd step on us. she was really annoying. so, ofcourse, my lovely friends and i were laughing at her and making comments loud enough to be heard.. she had really really short hair and she looked like an elf or fairy.. and she said something to us then i said "oh im sorry, i dont understand elve-n (lord of the rings elf language)..

ha..so this guy she was with kept purposely backing up into us (not while the show was going on because then that would be acceptible because everyone gets crazy).. so yeah this asshole was pushing into us.. so ya know.. we pushed BACK! then all hell broke lose.. haha...

she started cursing april, gigi and i out.. "im ganna kick all of your asses!" but i mean, she was this ugly lesbian fairy.. soo it was HIGHLY UNLIKELY! and everyone around us like these cute tall white girls were backing us up like saying "those people are stupid.. we have your back. dont worry"..

wow this story is getting long.. okay so anyway.. we thought that was over and done with.. then all of a sudden, stupid elf girl throws something at us! WHAT A BITCH!! haha.. so her guy was wearing a hoodie, so i started putting crap in it.. all these people around me were passing me pieces of papers and stuff to put there..

so the guy turns around, yells at us.. and this guy behind me starts defending us.. and the nice guy throws a cup at the stupid guy.. hahah.. it was great.. i need to live more.. and the stupid guy was like "what the fuck is your problem?".. and i was like "TEL YOUR GIRLFRIEND TO STOP THROWING SHIT AT US!" (hahahahahaa.. i really did say "shit: which is like AMAZING)...

hahaha...well that story was completely useless. i really need to get out more... oh well



so any way.. it was a bunch of crazy people who were seriously perspiring for days! holyyy.. i felt like i was in hell because of the heat..

i look pretty hot here if i may so myself.. ha. its because of my teased hair by janice.

~martine~ at 8:58 PM

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

this is so freakin lame.

i am furious at my parent's right now..

so i havent seen my friends in ages right (well a week and a half is practically ages during the summer..

finally, i get the chance to go out with them.. just some really clean.. (and i mean CLEAN) fun.. and all of a sudden, they get all "PARENTAL" with how they want me to be home.

yeah FREAKIN right..

they want me to rot at home bored out of my mind like how they do.. they are always effing home. they are home DAY til NIGHT doing nothing but bickering at each other.. and the times that i am home, the only communication with my dad is to clean something up.. my mom is eternally annoying, but pleasant at times.. but jeez.. why do they want me home all the time?!!!!

i never do anything crazy.. im well-behaved and never come home at an obscene hour.. all i ask is that i be trusted to go out when i feel its appropriate...

they complain.. "ohh well you were out LAST NIGHT"... well ya know.. last night was 4th of july.. i came home at TWELVE!! effing 12 o'clock! WOW im soOoOooo rebellious and crazy!! and besides, what were they doing at home that they wanted me hear so bad? you know what they were doing??? watching freakin fireworks on tv and going to sleep at 10.. so my lifestyle is like ALL CRAZY because i'm not in bed when the sun hasnt even set.

uhh.. and they think its soO funny how im at home and miserable and crying in front of this stupid computer.. they make me so angry some times.. this is so unnecessary..

I AM SOOOOOOOOO ANNOYED/MAD/IRRITATED.... my gosh.. my head is going to explode with fury.... they want me to be miserable like them!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is what im going to do the entire night (instead of watching a $1 movie with friends): im going to be on the computer.. like a lazy ass.. doing nothing but looking at myspace judging everyone's appearance.. probably watch tv later on by myself.. and hopefully, shelton will be home early so i can talk to him on the phone and complain to him about my stupid parents.


UUHHHHH SOMEONE SAVE ME FROM THIS HELLHOLE. I WANT TO RUN AWAY... DAMNIT I WISH I MADE MY OWN MONEY AND COULD JUST HAVE MY OWN PLACE AND MAKE MY OWN RULES.. I HATE FOLLWOING SOMEONE ELSES FREAKIN RULES.. I AM SLOWLY BUT SURELY GOING MAD
~martine~ at 8:31 PM

from my millions of archives...



happy birthday, america.. like i really care right?

but whatever.. any reason for a celebration is reason enough!!

i spent fourth of july with ton and his fam.



i love those morning glory sparkler things.





i look really ugly in all of these.







ew.





dj shelltron.



more morning glory fun.








this is pretty random.. ha



i wasnt really drinking that.. ha.. neither was jane i think..
~martine~ at 11:38 AM

Friday, July 01, 2005

i dont know if its just my house.. but i swear to god, there are a million of these brown beatles freakin EVERYWHERE! im sitting on the computer (like a loser) and i see already 4 of them..

one of them flew at my face..

one is crawling on the ground..

and there are two dead ones just hanging out on the window sill.. i stabbed them with the ball point of a pen.. very quickly ofcourse.. those suckers fly so fast!

i hate being home.. im going a little nuts from just sitting here.. yesterday i spent 7 hours watching america's next top model re-runs and feeling bad about myself that im not over 5'7 weighing 100 pounds..

so when people get bored.. (or maybe its just me).. there is nothing really to do but eat and sleep.. i feel like a koala.. all they do is eat and sleep the entire day.. so i melted this hershey chocolate bar and smothered it allover a banana and stuck it in the freezer.. and now im sitting patiently waiting for it to be officially frozen so i can enjoy the fruits of my labor.. what am i saying? i dont know.. im freakin bored..

someone invite me somewhere fun and exciting and different.. i want to be on tv.. i wanna be famous.. i just dont know what i want to be famous for..

so i finally finished my 3-week swimming lessons.. and im officially golden delicious.. (as i like to call my new beautiful tan)..

these are stupid pictures i took while chatting with janice to ask if she approved of this outfit.



.. and yes, yes i do realize that i 'filled out'

look.. im so black all u can say is the dress and a little of my smile.



someone invite me swimming so i can show them how i don't drown when i doggy paddle.
~martine~ at 3:03 PM